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Today, I finished my first song on keyboard. It is quite short, about fifty seconds, and instrumental. I call it Fall of the Blood.

-Aki

It started off so kind
Two souls but one mind
I promised you to be with you forever
We both know this promise never (lasted)

[Calm drum solo growing faster]

I was blinded by desire
You would know
I drifted higher and higher
You would know
Blinded by desire
and a victim of love so cruel
Blinded by desire
with love taking over my soul

[Drum playing jungle-style]

I only did what any man in my position
would do
Can you see from my reflection?
Can you?

I was blinded by desire
You would know
I drifted higher and higher
You would know
Blinded by desire
and a victim of love so cruel
Blinded by desire
with love taking over my soul

I was blinded by desire
You would know
I drifted higher and higher
You would know
Blinded by desire
and a victim of love so cruel
Blinded by desire
with love taking over my soul

Can you forgive me
for what I have done?
Can you forgive me
for living a life?

I was blinded by desire
You would know
I drifted higher and higher
You would know
Blinded by desire
and a victim of love so cruel
Blinded by desire
with love taking over my soul

[Piano playing calmly]

People say
that I am shielded
People say
that I am staring
into the dark
Waiting for my rescue
Waiting for a change in life
And they won’t believe
that someone’s haunting me
(ha-aunting me)

[Drums introducing harder music]

‘Cause I am the haunted one
[Short (~3 seconds) drum solo]
Wolves run around
tracing my heart
and I am the haunted one
the one
the ha-aunted one

[Calmer music once again]

I hear the howling
I feel the howling
I see the howling
I can… touch the howling
I hear screams every night
that no-one else would hear
Cause I…
I am the haunted one

[Clean, yet fast piano play, slow singing]

A child yet wreckless
was me without a mess
Parent’s ultimate pride
Ay, trashed before the tide
You say I’m out of touch
You say I’m hard too reach

[Clean, fast piano solo]

‘Cause I am the haunted one
[Introducing drums]
Wolves run around
tracing my heart
and I am the haunted one
the one
the ha-aunted one

[Drums solo]

‘Cause I am the haunted one
Wolves run around
tracing my heart
and I am the haunted one
the one
the ha-aunted one

[Rougher vocals, almost screaming]

You will never save me from the dark
The ghosts in me won’t let you save me from the dark
[Introducing backing vocals]
They want me
They have me
They need me
to survive
[Every instrument but clean piano stops]
You will never save me from the dark
The ghosts in me won’t let you save me from the dark
[Piano solo (~15-20 seconds)]
They won’t let you save me from the dark…
[Drums playing djungle rhythm, finishing off with rapid non-melodical drum solo]

remember
that this will be the last words of me
whatever I say
no matter if I beg
no matter what I say
don’t ever let me stay
don’t trust
what I say

let me fade away
don’t let me stay
whatever I say
don’t let me stay

don’t let me see
the beauty of thee
cause I can’t stand
not holding your hand
all the time

we were together
remember, my dear?
we were together
but I can’t stand this anymore
I know you’re cheating
I know that you’re false
and I can’t stand this anymore
I can’t stand seeing you with others
I love you
and you love me back
but you do love to many
I’m just a goddamn sack

let me fade away
don’t let me stay
whatever I say
don’t let me stay

don’t let me see
the beauty of thee
cause I can’t stand
not holding your hand
all the time

you wanna know a goddamn truth?
no-one cares about your bluetooth
no-one good, at very least
and no-one cares about that leet speak

[STAGING INSTRUMENTAL]

[A CAPELLA]
didn’t you know
[A CAPELLA END]
it’s all an illusion
nothing here is for real
there is no spoon
there is no moon
I don’t expect you to believe me
but at last it’s worth a try
you guys only think you see me
[A CAPELLA]
if you knew the truth, you’d cry
[A CAPELLA END]

this song is nothing but an illusion
and no, there is no solution
and oh my god, oh dear lord
there is no spoon, there is no sword

this is why the song is poorly written
in truth, you don’t have that kitten
trust The Matrix, there’s no spoon
trust this song, there’s no moon

the US didn’t actually reach it
even though they think they did
they US will actually never reach it
they haven’t yet got out of the crib

didn’t you know
it’s all an illusion
nothing here is for real
there is no spoon
there is no moon
I don’t expect you to believe me
but at last it’s worth a try
you guys only think you see me
if you knew the truth, you’d cry

not since that day
not since that day

not since that day
not since the day
you turned your pretty face away
not since that day
not since the day
you wanted everything your very own way
and now you are left all alone again

not since that day
not since the day
you turned your pretty face away
ever since that day
I hate to see your smile
ever since that day
I love to hate your love to me
my love was never true

[A CAPELLA]
was it?
[A CAPELLA END]

not since that day
never since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since the day
you turned your pretty face away

those memories will last forever
those days have gone lost for ages
not since that day
never since that day
well, nowaday
I don’t love those kisses
no more

not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
not since that day
(not since that day)

standing alone
time to die
creeping soon
time to cry

I’m all alone
imprisoned for life
no-one is human
no-one is sane

thoughts of dying
thoughts of death
thoughts of destruction
thoughts of my wrath

stand alone complex
afraid of this non-love
stand alone complex
no human warmth for life
stand alone complex
humanity missed out

I’m here all alone
why don’t you let me out
innocence imprisoned
and so is the love

a replica, shell
so am I
no-one to turn to
no-one to trust

stand alone complex
afraid of this non-love
stand alone complex
no human warmth for life
stand alone complex
humanity missed out

my heart’s cold
so cold
my breath’s dead
so dead

I will always stand alone
I will always stay in the cage of mine
stand alone complex
I will always stand alone

stand alone complex
afraid of this non-love
stand alone complex
no human warmth for life
stand alone complex
humanity missed out

GET A GRIP – AKI
2006.12.20

he betrayed you long ago
you used to be his lover
now, your a waiter, driver, hooker and a cook
you sit around and cry
cut a wound with that knife
opening a new scar
wish that you would die

get a grip of your life
turn to me and say
your gonna get the hell about the razors and the knife
get a grip of that life
get a grip of your life
turn to me and say that
“i will never cry”

at first you both were happy
then you started doing what he had to do as well
you didn’t even notice how deep you fell
until it was too late
until he was hitting you at least once a day
it’s not easy having winter all around in May
you have to try, have to try breaking through
don’t try tricking me, cause I already know

get a grip of your life
turn to me and say
your gonna get the hell about the razors and the knife
get a grip of that life
get a grip of your life
turn to me and say that
“i will never cry”

[INSTRUMENTAL]

get a grip of your life
turn to me and say
your gonna get the hell about the razors and the knife
get a grip of that life
get a grip of your life
turn to me and say that
“i will never cry”

we can’t accept what just must happen
tell me
will we accept what’s about to happen
to us
to our love
the end is possible to rearrange
let’s go ahead and kill the end

must all the good things have a end
must every relation end
follow me
we’ll fight the end

I won’t accept a fight to be the end
I won’t accept our love to go to hell
I will stand up
I will fight the end

I will travel anywhere
killing all the things that killed our love
a love so sweet
can’t end like that

must all the good things have a end
must every relation end
follow me
we’ll fight the end

must all the good things have a end
must every relation end
follow me
we’ll fight the end

you and me
we’ll fight the end
together
we’ll stand tall
and we will fight the end

THE DEATH OF YOU – AKI
2007.02.16

[CALM INSTRUMENTAL]

I know you love me
and oh my god
I love you too
(I love you too)
but this cannot go on
as the blood colors the curtains of our home
I know that this will be our last night
my love
(I’m not good for you)
(I’m not enough for you)
(I’m not the one for you)
(I will be the death of you)

you have to leave me here to fall
you have to stop those tears and let me die
you got to finish this last call
I won’t let you see how I cry
over you
you have to leave me here to fall
please move
or I will be the (death of you)

you knew this wouldn’t last forever
we have different lives and all that matters
is your life, your happiness on earth
I want to see you cry
I want to see you hate the me you love
go ahead and make my day
go ahead and blow my head off
or I will be the (death of you)
I will be the death of you

I will jump beyond the moon
please don’t break my fall
I want to die alone
please, finish up this call
(I love you)

[REPETITIVE INSTRUMENTAL]

you have wasted an entire life
on living here
by my side
well, this is enough
and I won’t let you suffer
you will not suffer anymore
I won’t let you break my fall
I won’t let you continue our call

this is my life
I can do whatever I want
you cannot stop that knife
no, you don’t
let me die alone
or I will be the death of you

[REPETITIVE, FAST INSTRUMENTAL]

(I will be the death of you)
(I will be the death of you)

you knew this wouldn’t last forever
we have different lives and all that matters
is your life, your happiness on earth
I want to see you cry
I want to see you hate the me you love
go ahead and make my day
go ahead and blow my head off
or I will be the (death of you)
I will be the death of you

[A CAPPELA]
(you knew this wouldn’t last forever)
(we have different lives and all that matters)
(is your life, your happiness on earth)
(I want to see you cry)
(I want to see you hate the me you love)
(go ahead and make my day)
(go ahead and blow my head off)
(or I will be the death of you)
(I will be the death of you)
[A CAPPELA END]

[SHORT DRUM INSTRUMENTAL]

I will be the death of you
(I will be the death of you)
[A CAPPELA]
I will be the death of you
[A CAPPELA END]

[CALM INSTRUMENTAL, FADING]